Im officially a Segian ~

Recently I had finished my orientation in Segi Subang last two weeks ago. The orientation is held for 3 days.
erm.. for the comment for these three days are truely awesome experience for me..FIRSTLY! WHEN YOU ENTER SEGI COLLEGE, EVERYTHINGS IS ENGLISH~ HAHA! For the people tat i knew, they sure say " english wat ? you at home everyday speak english .. its should not be a problem for me wat. " ..erm.. maybe this stament is true..maybe not..haha.. for me.. my english is half pass six..they called it "broken english", "manglish" . haha..

    I had learn some thing through these orientation~ from the group interact n everything, i had explore how to get along with different races n kinds of ppl.. How to communicate? how to work together as a team. Erm.. Perhaps really nt tat easy as i thought.. everyone reaction were as cool as ice..(i guess is a normal reaction for the first time ).. So at the begining , the ice breaking dint work really well because lack of communication in the group. I always encourage my self if i expect something from others, perhaps i should start first. If i cant even do it, then what i can expect for? things wont be chg because of just expecting without any action. HAHAHAHA~ 

    erm.. my feeling is kinda complicated tat time.. For the moment I had already is a college student, i realize that everythings need to be Independent in solving ur own stuff .... but that really need alot of courage to do that. Need to suit in the new environment, need to mix news friends n so on..At first i really don like this feeling , very lonely n uncomfortable.. but the longer i doing this, i think i can start to accept it..I have to admit it.. sometime BEING ALONE is really a enjoy things.. when u are alone, u can actually feel the peacefulness although the surrounding is noisy.. of cuz for sometimes this feeling is really sucks...sometime these feeling will turns to fear too.. but lucky i had a umbrella .. this umbrella is different ..it is special n precious to me too.. when i feel lonely or afaird, i can feel tat the umbrella is calming down n giving me alot of warmness to me.. like help me to shade from the sun n the rain.. protecting me from enemies~~

           Now i had in Segi for the third week, still in adaptation period .. All the best to me n of cuz all the best to all ppl around me too.. ^^

静修班~

什么是静修班？ 在我脑海里，它就是所谓的要双盘，背部需挺直，等。。静坐！不是觉得不好，是我觉得好难哦！每一次这样做，觉得好幸苦，很痛。。不过今天就让自己一个机会去体验，说真的，我好像从来没有体验什么静修班。（静坐是有啦。。就很好奇，静修班是怎样。）
就约妈妈一同报名了（主要也想让妈妈可以找一个地方”充电“）

我只能说今天这个过程是很舒服的。它也没有我想象中的那么难，那么复杂。就很简单的-------那就是休息。首先，师父先要求我们把身上的只要认为是责任的，通通交给一个你非常信任的人。当时，我把它们交给我的导师---佛陀。当时我的身体真的放松了。接下来，大家就可以以最舒服的方式，要躺也好，要靠墙也好，只要能保持觉醒的心就好。当然过程中，师父也一直强调不要刻意和自己的感觉做对，就让它顺其自然就行了。能感觉到累，睡着了，就代表你的身体累坏了，需要休息了。今天我的心是充满欢喜的心，因为今天得到了很多人的祝福，最重要的是得到了自己的祝福。很多时候，都一直祝福别人，一直忘了祝福自己，给自己力量。也非常感恩有一个这么好的机会，让我的心能静下来（当然过程中还是有一点没专心，有分心到），但我相信。。我是可以有进步的空间。

当时的感觉就像躺在绿油油的草原上，吹着那把温暖的风，舒服地仰望着那蔚蓝的天空。好舒服啊～

感恩。。

愿一切众生健康，幸福，永远保持快乐。

下定决心～

久违了，我好像在这部落格世界消失了很久。如今决定回来了~
当初没继续写的原因,第一 ； 懒惰
                                   
                                     第二 ； 觉得我不再想分享我的事，让大家知道。
                                     
                                     第三 ； 认为自己，整理出来的东西，让自己很难过，起了很多的烦恼
因为这样，我就决定不想在面对，不想在写了。（有时，甚至有一个想法是想干脆删除掉blog但又不舍得）
现在回来的原因 ， 第一 ； 发现在这里可以好好整理我的心，也是一个能让我可以常常回来自己的地方 。
                                  第二 ； 不能在懒惰下去
                               
                                  第三 ； 让我在这里记下我每一天成长的经历。
                               
                                  第四 ；希望在这里，可以与大家分享，我的成长和喜悦。

              arghh!!! 要维持，就得坚持！欣宜，不准懒惰了！就这样，希望我不是抱着三分钟热度下这个决定的。

至于在这几年，我过得如何？ 我觉得我越来越看待，越来越爱我的生命，因为这一路走来，有“他”陪伴。因为“他” ， 让我知道什么生命，给了我很多力量继续走下去。 过后，我会再和大家分享谁是那个“他”。